Chasing The High

Have you heard that quote, "She's chasing the high."
It's typically used with drug addicts or alcoholics.  But I have officially claimed it!
NO, I'm not doing drugs.
NO, I'm not drinking.
BUT, what I am doing is chasing my food addiction high.
Jose and I took the kids to the drive in Tuesday night.  Before we left I stopped at the Dollar Tree and bought candy, a lot of candy!  I bought Ant, Dom and Dee's requested candy along with the candy that I thought Jose and I would want to munch on.  On our way out to the drive in we stopped at Little Ceasars to buy some $5 pizza's with what else...Garlic Butter Dipping Sauce!  Makes my mouth drool just thinking of it!

We got to the drive in and got situated.  I fed all the munchkins so that I can sit and enjoy my hot pizza with my garlic butter dipping sauce.  OH YEAH...I was one happy Mama!!!  Until piece number three.  I felt horrible!  I wanted to vomit and get it out of my belly.  But I knew that would bring other issues and I really didn't want to vomit all that yummy goodness I just devoured.  So I drank 2 bottles of water.  After all, it would flush it down to where I could next have some CANDYYYYYY!
OH YEAH, first it was a Red Vine, then I opened the box of Sugar Babies for Jose and had to have a handful.  Then the Chewy Sweet Tart Minis I bought Anthony...Hey, they were tiny and I needed a tart after the sweets.  Then my box...Whoppers!  I had a few OK, I had about 6!
I was chasing that high!  I wanted something but nothing was getting it.  Out of all of the junk I ate, nothing got me to where I wanted to be.  I could have kept going but my body was screaming at me from the inside out!  It was horrible.  I felt lousy for the rest of the night, even after about 6 bottles of water.  The next day I woke up with my sciatica flared up and my sinus inflamed.  I couldn't work out, and still haven't this week.  So I knew I had to do something right.  I pounded the water all day on Wednesday and ate tons of veggies and fruits trying to flush my body of all the toxins.
Yes, TOXINS!  Our bodies weren't made for all of the processed food we give it.  The fattening foods we put into it.  The grease we expect it to digest.  Like I've said before, I don't deprive my body but it all has to be done in moderation, not gorge!

So what could I have done better?
1) Pack & Prepare- apples with almond butter, grapes, grape tomatoes, raisins dipped in yogurt and frozen, popcorn with no butter.

2) Pre-thought MY dinner- I could have made a salad and taken that with me.  Or even cut up veggies that I could have eaten BEFORE the pizza.  Then I would only have needed to eat 1 piece, opposed to the 3 I ate.  It would have even benefited my family to have a salad or veggies before dinner.

3) Not buying as much candy- I still have 4 boxes of candy in my pantry.  I didn't need to buy all of that candy.  My kids nor Jose eat it.  It'll sit in there for a while until I throw it out.  Actually , Jose did finish off the sugar babies last night and I think Adi ate some red vines.  But I didn't need to buy all that candy.

There is SO much that goes into this whole learning to live better.  I have to remember to think before I act, just like in any other area of my life.
Just like the quote says below, "Old habits die hard.  But the good news is, they do die." ~JM

It's Officially Official!!!!!

I knew I nailed it on Saturday but I got my confirmation email today!!!!
I'm so excited. I can't believe this is truly happening, it is a little surreal. Now for the real work to begin.
Here it is...

Huge food accomplishment

This Friday and Saturday, Jose and I went out of town to celebrate our 17 year wedding anniversary!!!  It was SO nice, just to get away.
We went to dinner Friday night.  We stopped at Chili's on our way out to our first destination.  Typically I will order anything with pasta, cream, fried, fatty, you get the picture.  Well, browsing the menu I saw a new Mango Salsa Salmon (I think that's what it was).  I told Jose, I think I was going to get that.  He wanted the same thing, which is typical when it comes to seafood.  He always chooses it over anything else (except steak).  I was kind of sad for a minute that I wasn't getting pasta or something more fattening.  After all, I was on my anniversary celebration weekend.  I should be going all out, right!?!?!
WRONG!  I need to be making more conscious decisions at all times no matter where I'm at or what I'm doing!
Saturday we woke up late and took our time getting ready and heading out for the day.  I know now I should have packed some food for me to eat.  I actually knew when I was packing that I should have but just didn't...live and learn.  It wasn't until 1pm that we left the hotel and I hadn't eaten since the night before.  Hungry was an understatement at that point.  We knew there was a Starbucks next door to the hotel and we also knew that was going to be our first stop.  We needed some coffee!!!  Jose ordered his coffee and a piece of berry cake thing.  I actually stood there and observed the calorie content of each thing.  Asked the barista if they had nutritional facts on a few of my choices and what they were made of. Unfortunately he wasn't too helpful and they didn't have the info in store.  But I made the best choice I could at the moment.  I was pretty proud of myself that I stopped and took the time to make an "educated" decision.  I got my muffin and coffee and off we went.
We planned on going to lunch and knew we wanted sushi!  So off on the hunt we went.  We finally found a WONDERFUL little gem tucked away by an Albertsons and a bakery and another Mexican food place.  Went in and looked at the menu.  Unfortunately they didn't have an all you can special but they did have bentos!  There was an older gentleman sitting next to us that gave us a yummy bento tip and so we ordered it along with a sushi roll.  Jose and I ended up splitting a salmon and shrimp sushi roll and a bento box consisting of prime rib teriyaki, tempura, sashimi, a super yummy salad and a few mixed veggies.
We literally split it all and I was surprisingly full and content.  We used to go to sushi places and I can't even tell you how many rolls we would I would put down in a single sitting!  
Later that night we ended up at Downtown Disney and I KNEW we were going to be eating at The Jazz Kitchen I actually made reservations the night before we couldn't keep because Jose was late getting home.  Anyway, I SO wanted the Blackened Chicken Carbonarra!!!  I kept drooling over it and mentally finding excuses as to why I should eat that dish.  It's had to impress my pallet and I KNEW this dish would have done it!  I talked with the waitress and she agreed, if I wanted to be 'WOW-ED' this was the dish.  Well I also told her I needed to be a "good girl" and eat something with a lower calorie content.  She suggested the Pecan Crusted Salmon, which I looked at but then thought...NAAAAHHHH.
Well, I ordered it and it was divine !!  I was SO happy I went with the salmon.  Not only because it tasted AMAZING but the calorie count had to have been at least a few hundred calories less than the other choice and the salmon is so much better for you.  We did order the banana's foster and I did have a Jorge's Land Mine (Moonshine grain whisky, rum, vodka, gin, midori, sweet and sour).  But over all, it was about the choices I was making.  Being conscious of what I was choosing and making the right choices.  

Jazzercise update: I have been working out this week.  Nothing out of the ordinary.  But I've been trying to focus on my arms like Tana showed me.  Being aware of my moves, exaggerating certain moves and being BIGGER...HAHAHAHA
I went up on the stage and did one of my favorite songs right now.  The instructor and I BOTH forgot the routine...HAHAHAHA It was hilarious!  Thank God Rebecca was in the back guiding us because we were both lost.  It is SO hard for me to start on my left side!  I sweat like a crazed lunatic and I just think it's hilarious!  People looking at me makes me feel so off, I really don't like it but I know I will get through all of this.  It hasn't really kicked in yet, nerves wise, that Saturday is the day.  I'm grateful for that because I'm getting sleep.  

Oh, I almost forgot!  I have been wanting to get my nose pierced again for a while but don't want to just go do it.  Jose and I were going to go get piercings for our anniversary but never did.  So I told Jose that if I pass this Saturday I want to go get my nose done.  We will see, but I really want to get it done.  It'll be a significance of a milestone.  Then once I become an instructor I want to get a tattoo.  Not sure what yet but I know it will come to me.  So, make sure you look for a picture...it'll indicate if I passed or not.

Until later....be conscious!!!

I'm baaack!

I had to take a hiatus from blogging. I seem to get excited over things and then over focus on the one thing and not on others.
Well, I am learning balance! We will see how long it lasts. Hopefully a long time, I need to stay focused.

Anywho, I have a Jazzercise update!
I have my Movement Screening in ONE WEEK!!!!! AAAAAHHHHH!!!!!
I'm so nervous! I want to do good, I want to pass and I want to start moving forward to become an instructor. The feed back from my peers is SO AWESOME! I've had people approach me and encourage me and cheer me on. It means SO much to me!
Today I met with Tana. I think it went well. I seem to have short limbs (not new news to me) and so I need to learn to really exaggerate my movements, especially in my arms. I've been told I need to up my intensity, which I'm really trying to do. There are times during my workout I want to drop down to lower intensity or slow down. But I'm not allowing myself. I literally talk to myself and have to stay on track. I'm feeling it and I'm feeling it get easier. Now I have to work on my arms and certain movements to make sure I'm learning right. Tana went over notes with me and showed me some things. I'm really getting excited!!!
Jose has been getting side jobs and my parties have doubled what I've been doing. So the money is coming in. It's amazing how its all working out! It all seemed like it wasn't going to happen but I now see the light.
I'm super excited! I plan on keeping up on here more. I'll try to post before next Saturday but if not, I'll post after to keep all of my followers, cheerleaders and fans up to date on my journey!

Oh I almost forgot. Delayna snapped a pic of Tana and I working. I'm up on stage. Thought I'd share.